I think I got an idea as to why I can never get anything done, I have no plan. There are many times during the day when I just cannot think of what to do next. For example, I just finished reading a book. I had planned for the book to take four hours because I listen to audio books at double speed while reading the text at the same time. This book only took about three hours and at the end, I just became confused as to what to do next. I figured that it would be time for bed when I was done, and now there is nothing for me to do. If I had a clear to-do list, this would not be a problem at all. One of the books that I recently read told me that habits are just what our brain turn to when there is nothing pulling on us. Like gravity, if we do not push ourselves in the direction we want to go in, we will simply get pulled back towards whatever feels good at the time. Addiction is not a compulsion to do something, it is just what our brain defaults to when it has nothing better to do. If I were to make a to-do list right now, what would be on it. I really don't know for sure. I can pretend like there are those things that I want to do, but those are all random dreams. I really cannot think of anything right now that I very concretely want to do right this moment. There is nothing that is not just a wish like make more money. I could clean my house, wash the dishes, write some JavaScript code, make a YouTube video. All those things are just small disconnected pieces. If you want to learn, there are to be a reason. I would like to learn how to speak Finnish, why? Can I figure out a good way to incorporate that desire into my life goals. I am going to read another book after work tomorrow night, what will I do after I am done. What are my goals, beyond the small things that I would like to do. I really don't know. I keep getting advice from small blogs about how I should write down all I need to do during the day, but what will that do for me. To start with, there is no need to remake your entire life in one day. Having a list of things to do is not a life plan, it is just something to get you started. Making a checklist for a single day and completing everything on it will start you towards something bigger, even if it doesn't look that big at first. At the very least, it is better than nothing.


I really need to update the look of my pages here. Read something about how to get all this to look the way you want.